Today is a dreary, dark and rainy day here in the Southern parts of Oregon. Not the best day for a birthday.
Not to mention that the past week has been filled with sleepless nights and a LOT of coughing. Then, of course, last night we had a puker. Figures.
Another year, another year older. I am not impressed. I have goals that I have not accomplished. I have projects and books not completed. I am working hard to get my health back on track. Yet this week, I have felt like Failure. Yes, a Capital F failure.
Sometimes that is how mom life goes. Goals and things that are not always on my time frame. I mean, those little humans require attention and care and all. Sometimes I feel bad that I want my own time. I feel selfish. Yet, I also want sleep. I want to function and feel human and not give up my life and goals completely. Sometimes it feels like all or nothing. Lately, it feels like nothing.
My birthday has been sitting near my little sickie while being a dull mombie all day. Doing NOTHING. At. All. Feeling like the day is wasting away and the possibly fun that I could have had is now a distant glimpse of what my day could have been. All I wanted for my birthday was time with my husband and time at the gym. Self care. Neither happened. It is now dinner time and nothing. *Sigh*
The reality, mom life is HARD. Some days are discouraging. It is a battle to keep going and keep the enemy from stealing the joy. Especially when there is not always much joy to begin with.
But, I am alive and breathing and have a beautiful family that are amazing. When they are not puking.
I have oils and healthy tools. I have knowledge and strength to survive this season, however long. As long as I can get a night of sleep, I will keep on truckin'.
What do you do when you are at the end of you, struggling to keep on?
Who else is excited that Spring is here? While it may not feel like it in many areas of the country, I am always grateful for a little extra sun and warmth in my neck of the woods.
Spring means many things in my household. Busy, for starters. Kids activities and changes on the horizon. Like I have a kiddo that is moving on up to High school next year. I say this, while really not sure I believe it is true. It has not yet hit me, nor do I want it to yet. I have time to be in denial. Being busy helps. ;)
We also have track, field trips, gymnastics, extra work, more sunshine sometimes means more busy in the yard. Gardening and attempting to grow things in the garden. (We will see, since I have a black thumb- but I try anyway.) Projects, both for work and home that are begging to be given attention. Then community events. Planning for summer. Trips. Training. Family time.
In the midst of everything, I am still working on repairing my health. While it is a slow and tedious process, it is coming along. At least most days, I am reminded that it is. There are days that I am extra tired and I have to remind myself that my thyroid and gut and hormones are still balancing themselves and to REST. Yes, even in the midst of busy. My body still requires it. My mind requires it, too. I am forced to slow down, taking in deep breaths and trying to remember how far I have come. I am hopeful that this year will be a positive one in the midst of the busy due to my healing.
I am thankful for my learning, my health products and resources and especially these oils. They are definitely a God-send to me in my health and healing process.
What are you most looking forward to in this season?
Picture: A beautiful spring evening on the Oregon Coast. Permission to post.